HOLLYOAKS star Joe Tracini revealed he had a “really bad” week where he planned his suicide and was so depressed he couldn’t go to the toilet.
The 32-year-old actor opened up about his mental health battles admitting that he’s been struggling recently.
Joe Tracini opened up about his mental health battles
The star said on social media: “Hi, I hope you’re okay. I haven’t been and I’m going to tell you about that.
“I’ve stopped being able to do all things. I can’t email people back, I can’t text people back, I can’t pick up the phone.”
In a shocking revelation, Joe admitted that he needed to urinate but refused to go to the bathroom for “nine hours”.
He explained: “I needed a wee for like nine hours, I just didn’t go. I live in a studio flat so my toilet is closer than my telly.
The star said he had recently planned his suicide
“It’s like I just accepted the fact that I’d be full of urine forever now.”
The star then opened up about some of the darker thoughts that he’s experienced lately.
Joe continued: “Anyway really bad few days, couldn’t stop thinking about killing myself.
“It’s like when it get’s that bad an a**hole who lives in my head has a knuckle duster with ‘kill yourself’ written on it and I just have to wait for it to go.
The actor said he was ‘struggling’ with the thoughts in his head
“I tell my girlfriend it is happening and we try and move past it and wait because it does always go.”
In the heartbreaking admission, the actor explained that he recently planned his suicide because he was so depressed.
He added: “I had one day where I didn’t think about killing myself and it came back but that time I thought, I’m not going to tell my girlfriend.”
He revealed that he didn’t tell his girlfriend which was a “bad move” as the thoughts only got worse – after a few days he finally opened up to his partner.
He said he was so depressed that he refused to go to the toilet
Joe said he was sharing his personal battles publicly to help others who may be in a similar position.
He said: “So that’s why I am telling you because you might be in that place, where’ve you told someone before that you’re struggling, then you got better – then it’s come back.
“Please please please tell somebody that it’s come back because if they don’t know they can’t help you.”
A number of fans praised the star for being so honest, with one writing: “Thank you for sharing your story. I hate knowing you’re struggling, but it helps me to know that I’m not alone in wrestling with these thoughts. Love you.”
Joe has battled with his mental health since his childhood
Another posted: “Thank you . You are so good at telling us what it’s like . So important to hear.”
A third added: “Thank you for posting this. You have no idea how much it helps me.”
The star previously admitted he wanted to kill himself on low days as he battled with his personality disorder.
Joe Pasquale’s son has struggled since childhood with his mental health, he told Good Morning Britain viewers previously who are concerned about their mental health to wait it out as he shared his message “do not kill yourself”.
Joe said he wants to share his personal battles to help others
He said: “I think that the one thing that I always do is that if I feel negative I don’t stop myself feeling negative. Because it doesn’t go anywhere if I ignore it.
“I don’t tell myself ‘don’t be sad because someone has it worse’, that’s the same as telling myself don’t be happy as someone out there is happier.
He added: “There will come a point that there are a lot of people who haven’t been on pause and will need to.
“If you are anything like me and you are thinking about killing yourself, don’t, because the world needs you.”
