VINNIE Jones fought back tears as he bravely opened up about his late wife Tanya’s six-year cancer battle in an emotional interview on today’s Good Morning Britain.
Tanya passed away, aged 53, in July after a six-year cancer battle after being diagnosed with melanoma in 2013 and Vinnie reflected on life without his wife of 27 years.
Vinnie was visibly emotional during the candid chat
He cried as he recalled Tanya’s final days
The Hollywood hard man, 54, got choked as he recalled being told that she didn’t have long left to live and was advised to put her in a hospice by medics.
“It’s a sledgehammer hitting you,” he told Piers Morgan and Susanna Reid. “I said, ‘She ain’t going in no hospice.’
“Whenever she had been in [hospital] overnight, I have slept in the room with her every night…She would always say to me, ‘You will look after me Vin, won’t you?’”
And Vinnie went on to reveal how he struggled with the fact he couldn’t save her.
“That was the hardest thing in the end, because after the years, you can’t fulfil your promise,” he explained. “That was hard to deal with.”
Vinnie and Tanya were together for 27 years
Tanya wrote a letter to her daughter from her first marriage, Kayley, before she passed away and Vinnie reveals the contents of that letter helped pulled them through.
He revealed: “We found a letter from Tans to Kayley and that made us strong. It said: ‘Don’t grieve, I will be waiting for you.’ And I believe that. I have got something to look forward to. If you turn a negative into a positive. And she is waiting
“And so that’s what you deal with. My daughter has been strong. That letter has made my daughter very strong.”
Vinnie also became emotional as he admitted that Tanya never knew how much time she had left.
Vinnie told how he believes they will be together again one day
The footballer turned actor recalled how he saw a white light the night Tanya passed away
Piers Morgan, Susanna Reid and Charlotte Hawkins appeared moved throughout the interview
“I didn’t want her frightened,” he said. “It would have really frightened her. I said [to the doctors] ‘I don’t want her to know but I don’t want her in any pain.’ She was in a lot of pain.”
He also recalled how last Christmas was the toughest of their life.
“Christmas Eve was a tough one,” he said. “That was when they rang and said they had found a couple of spots on their brain. That was the first time [me and Tanya] broke down together. We had a couple of guests there and she didn’t want to ruin their Christmas. ”
Vinnie, who will take part in The X Factor: Celebrity because it was Tanya’s wish that he do so, went on to discuss how, on the night she died, he saw a light that he believes was her spirit.
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“When she was passing away, that half an hour… it felt like butterflies and Tinkerbell were leaving the bed,” he revealed.
“That night we went outside, we didn’t know what to do, everyone had gone to bed…I went to go in and I looked round and I saw this white light.
“I don’t believe in all of this stuff. Tan loved getting her palm read and going to spiritualists… I turned and there was a white light..I looked around for something else and there was nothing else there.
“I said, ‘Is that you babe?’ and blew her a kiss. We had this thing, me and Tan, where everyday I would leave the house, I’d blow her a kiss and she would catch it. I blew a kiss and threw it up and I swear to you, Piers, the light was still there, it moved to the left, it went [spins round] and it went.
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“That was the moment, I knew she was gone. and that was me knowing that she is waiting now, in the spectrum of the universe. As I said the other day, our time here in minute, so it is not a problem for me. I will crash on through work.”
Vinnie also said his wife was nothing like today’s WAGs, referring to the recent drama between Coleen Rooney and Rebekah Vardy.
He said: “You look at the papers now with these football wives. She was offered to do modelling and do stories but she never done none of them. Tanya never did any of it. “She was the opposite to these girls now. I think it’s quite funny and everything else but what about the embarrassment to their husbands? No thought of their kids.”
He finished the interview by saying that he was speaking out as a “tribute to Tanya” and gave encouragement to others going through similar grief.
“You must be strong, you must talk to people and listen,” he said.